I got back to the Y yesterday and did a mile with the new inserts, they worked pretty good! I did 20 min on the elliptical after weights too, and my feet didn't go numb or hurt. I also loosened my shoes like Michelle (arf) suggested and I think the combo helped because today I did the same thing and got the same results. I also practiced putting my weight on the middle of my feet and felt like I was walking with my knees inward, but when I looked down it didn't look that way.

I have had two more occasions where I've run into someone that looks like she could be Julie's sister... it's so weird, that I keep seeing people suddenly that look like her, while for several months after her death I didn't. I am glad that someone is doing something in her honor.

At first lots of people talked about doing a bench at her church or something like that, but nobody did anything. As far as I know I'm the only one who sent money to our fellow photog who printed up our images for her funeral, to help him pay for the cost. Feels bad that so many people's lives were touched by her, but then they seem to have not been moved enough to physically do something in their lives in her honor. Anyway, to each his own. And I'm so glad someone is putting on the walk/run :)

Today my mom sent me a video that I just loved, but in it were words I've heard before... for some reason, today I heard their message and had a light bulb moment.

"Live simply. Love generous. Care deeply. Speak kindly. And leave the rest to God."

I know that often life gets very cluttered with all the things we have to do and then we pile on all the things we should do and life can feel overwhelming. Sometimes I get a glimpse that it's not all that complicated. I think of the words of President Hinckley that I've had on my fridge for ages...

“It isn’t as bad as you sometimes think it is. It all works out. Don’t worry. I say that to myself every morning. It will all work out. Put your trust in God, and move forward with faith and confidence in the future. The Lord will not forsake us. He will not forsake us. If we will put our trust in Him, if we will pray to Him, if we will live worthy of His blessings, He will hear our prayers.”

I think these words fit perfectly in the category of "if we live worthy of His blessings". In the end, it will all work out, it has to, that's the plan :)