I love so much how when the Lord knows I'm struggling, He sends me answers.
Today's talks in church were especially inspiring.
We've all heard the saying, "When you don't feel like praying, that is when you need to get on your knees and keep praying until you do feel like praying."
At Julie's funeral her pastor shared a journal entry he'd read where she wrote about her confusion at finding herself not thirsty for Christ. I'm thinking it was more the thirst for "living waters" that she was lacking. After pondering this situation out in her mind she decided that she must drink until she felt thirsty. Very similar points, I think.
Today's topic was about choosing the right and following the Prophet, in one of the speakers talks, she was talking about darkness and read specific scriptures that state that darkness cannot remain when there is light. She talked about how children have a natural tendency to fear darkness. At night when it's dark outside, and it's time for bed, and mom and dad are about to turn out the light, it's comforting to have a night light. It dispels all the darkness. She compared darkness to the darkness of the world, and how sometimes the darkness can seem to envelope us, but the light of the gospel can dispel the darkness. We cannot remain one foot in darkness and one foot in light.
This is the sifting hour, I have no doubt about that. We either will follow what the Prophets and the Gospel tells us, or we don't. It's not always easy. It's not always convenient. It's not always popular. But maybe sometimes we have to drink to be thirsty for it, or pray until we feel like praying, or just doing what we are supposed to, until we have a testimony of it.